Rawking It

What a tough couple months it has been.  I am typically a very positive person but some things that have just happened recently just got me thinking and reevaluating my life.  In October of last year I have moved to the great city of Chicago.  I moved here with big hopes and dreams but now as I'm standing here in front of my empty closet ready to move back I realize that I might of been wrong.  My biggest hope was that I'm going to meet some great people, people that would be my new friends, new business associates and even maybe a my new love.  But once again as I stand here, I realize that people are the same everywhere.  It doesn't matter if you live in the suburbs or in the city, in the US or Europe.... the people are the same.  You will meet good people, bad people, and whatever people.  You can't change anybody, you can only change yourself.  And as I put another self improvement and spiritual book in a box, this is what I decide to do, Change myself.  Not anybody else, only me!  

The mistakes of my past lead me to this point.  I always believed that the definition of insanity was "Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results", and unfortunately I have been insane for quite some time now.  It took a a little old man in a Ford Taurus to knock me out of that state of insanity.  How did he do that?  He literally ran into me and me and my insanity landed on his hood.  After this incident which left me with some physical, but mainly mental injuries I decided to change.

One thing that I have struggled with pretty much my whole life is my weight.  Ever since I can remember, even as a little girl, my weight was a major issue.  The funny thing is that I never was really fat, even now I'm not really fat.  And I actually can cover it up pretty well.  But it's when the bathing suite season comes, and the skin on my legs and ass look like a rotten apple and my arms have more dimples than cottage cheese, that's when you know how fat and out of shape I really am.  So here's my solution, are you ready?  I am going Raw!  Crazy?  Extreme?  It's the only thing that makes sense to me.  Start time....immeiatelly!  On top of this I plan to add on a work out routine, but more bout that in future blogs.

Some of my other issue that I will talk about in this blog include man (looking for love and getting rid of the bad ones), spirituality (yoga, meditation, inner peace, living with purpose).  Basically, I dont want to give this blog just one subject matter... because this about my journey, improving my life, and manifesting positive changes.  Well, Happy reading and Happy changing!